Let’s be realistic here for a while
So what if the troubles are as real as the light
When the wind wasn’t blowing like you wanted it
Didn’t you then run along with the kite?
A little heartache, a little heartbreak
Covered in the smiles of the little children playing in the rain
Do you not dream when the lights go out?
Do you not open your eyes when it’s bright?
Then why be sad, why be glum
Feel all you can with those fingertips
Before these fingers start to go numb
Let’s be unrealistic here for a while
Leave the troubles and misery behind
It’s a big world out there
It’s a big world in here as well
So quit trying to be the invisible person
You don’t have to be the shoulder on which everyone cries
You don’t have to take the blame or say the lies
So what if the world is moving too fast
Your feet weren’t meant to run my darling
Your feet were meant to dance
So dance, dance, dance
Don’t think twice...because you know you can
Its your life...Live it on your terms...
Thursday, February 19, 2009
....these eyes feel so heavy...warm....wet...
My fingers move slowly across the page...as they wield the pen...
The words on the pages have become blurred...
My breath has slowed down...
The sound of "Midnight by Jimi Hendrix" playing in the background dies away.
....and i let my eyelids fall....
Somewhere deep inside my mind, a poem comes calling out...
in the soft mellow voice of my english teacher...
"the woods are lovely..dark and deep...
but i have got promises to keep.
Miles to go before i sleep...
Miles to go before i sleep."
The words pull my falling mind back on to the shore.
The sound of the guitar comes rushing into my ears...
I force my eyes open...
My fingers grip the pen tighter...
The words have chosen to glow again...
...and i continue to write...
..into the night...
...into the dark and silent night...
My fingers move slowly across the page...as they wield the pen...
The words on the pages have become blurred...
My breath has slowed down...
The sound of "Midnight by Jimi Hendrix" playing in the background dies away.
....and i let my eyelids fall....
Somewhere deep inside my mind, a poem comes calling out...
in the soft mellow voice of my english teacher...
"the woods are lovely..dark and deep...
but i have got promises to keep.
Miles to go before i sleep...
Miles to go before i sleep."
The words pull my falling mind back on to the shore.
The sound of the guitar comes rushing into my ears...
I force my eyes open...
My fingers grip the pen tighter...
The words have chosen to glow again...
...and i continue to write...
..into the night...
...into the dark and silent night...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Remember the Courage
Do you think there exists a moment where you can just change yourself completely? Cleanse yourself ....redeem yourself...throw away all that you have become and become all that you have ever wanted? A task like this seems to be impossible...but is it so great...that its greater than your power of will?
Does our will lie in our ability to move boulders....or does it lie in our ability to move the hearts of people?
Does our strength lie in our ability to hold on tightly to the ones we love....or does it lie in our ability to let them go?
Does our resolve depend on how hard we can resit the change....or does it lie in our ability to accept it?
At the end of the day...when you sit in the dark...just you and your mind...do you feel happy about what you have become?...then why is there an urge to break lose...when there is nothing holding you down. Why then is there an urge to tell someone that you love them? Why is there a desire to fix all the wrongs that you have ever done?
Is there a moment in this darkness...when you tell yourself...."I am more than what this world sees me as. I am more than what I have become. I am more than even the change I wish to bring."
Does such a moment exist?....does it?....
Yes it does. It exists in every breath we take...in every blink we make. All we need to do...is use the "colossal courage" that binds our cells together. The courage that makes us close our eyes...the courage that makes us dream...the courage that makes us open our eyes again. Its the same courage that gave us our first kiss. Its the same courage that stopped our tears every time a friend left. Its the same courage that made us take our first steps. Do you remember that courage....or have you forgotten?
Remember...its never too late to change...not even when you are holding your very last breath.
We are more than what we are....we are what we believe.
Does our will lie in our ability to move boulders....or does it lie in our ability to move the hearts of people?
Does our strength lie in our ability to hold on tightly to the ones we love....or does it lie in our ability to let them go?
Does our resolve depend on how hard we can resit the change....or does it lie in our ability to accept it?
At the end of the day...when you sit in the dark...just you and your mind...do you feel happy about what you have become?...then why is there an urge to break lose...when there is nothing holding you down. Why then is there an urge to tell someone that you love them? Why is there a desire to fix all the wrongs that you have ever done?
Is there a moment in this darkness...when you tell yourself...."I am more than what this world sees me as. I am more than what I have become. I am more than even the change I wish to bring."
Does such a moment exist?....does it?....
Yes it does. It exists in every breath we take...in every blink we make. All we need to do...is use the "colossal courage" that binds our cells together. The courage that makes us close our eyes...the courage that makes us dream...the courage that makes us open our eyes again. Its the same courage that gave us our first kiss. Its the same courage that stopped our tears every time a friend left. Its the same courage that made us take our first steps. Do you remember that courage....or have you forgotten?
Remember...its never too late to change...not even when you are holding your very last breath.
We are more than what we are....we are what we believe.
Right in Two
A song called 'Right in Two'....A song by Tool...A song for all human beings! Some of the deepest lyrics i have come across in a very long time. As i listen to this song...it brings a smile to my lips. How true it is...how true....
Angels on the sideline,
Puzzled and amused.
Why did Father give these humans free will?
Now they're all confused.
Don't these talking monkeys know that
Eden has enough to go around?
Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys,
Where there's one you're bound to divide it.
Right in two.
Angels on the sideline,
Baffled and confused.
Father blessed them all with reason.
And this is what they choose.
And this is what they choose...
Monkey killing monkey killing monkey
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs,
They forge a blade,
And where there's one
they're bound to divide it,
Right in two.
Right in two.
Monkey killing monkey killing monkey.
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs.
They make a club.
And beat their brother, down.
How they survive so misguided is a mystery.
Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability
to lift an eye to heaven conscious of his fleeting time here.
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Fight over the clouds, over wind, over sky
Fight over life, over blood, over prayer,
overhead and light
Fight over love, over sun,
over another, Fight...
Angels on the sideline again.
Benched along with patience and reason.
Angels on the sideline again
Wondering when this tug of war will end.
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
RIGHT IN TWO!
Right in two...
Angels on the sideline,
Puzzled and amused.
Why did Father give these humans free will?
Now they're all confused.
Don't these talking monkeys know that
Eden has enough to go around?
Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys,
Where there's one you're bound to divide it.
Right in two.
Angels on the sideline,
Baffled and confused.
Father blessed them all with reason.
And this is what they choose.
And this is what they choose...
Monkey killing monkey killing monkey
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs,
They forge a blade,
And where there's one
they're bound to divide it,
Right in two.
Right in two.
Monkey killing monkey killing monkey.
Over pieces of the ground.
Silly monkeys give them thumbs.
They make a club.
And beat their brother, down.
How they survive so misguided is a mystery.
Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability
to lift an eye to heaven conscious of his fleeting time here.
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Fight over the clouds, over wind, over sky
Fight over life, over blood, over prayer,
overhead and light
Fight over love, over sun,
over another, Fight...
Angels on the sideline again.
Benched along with patience and reason.
Angels on the sideline again
Wondering when this tug of war will end.
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
Cut it all right in two
RIGHT IN TWO!
Right in two...
Friday, February 13, 2009
I am a Rose
I am a seed.
I sit on the top of this pile, in this overcrowded market for farmers. Baking under the sun...frozen by the bitter wind. Being sold for a couple of rupees, along with hundreds of others just like me...I'm not worth even a single rupee. I am expendable...replaceable.
Devoid of water, I am dry as sand...lifeless. Hard on the outside...i feel indestructible on the inside. How foolish of me.
Carried across the land...not knowing where i was born...not knowing from which womb was i stolen, i am thrust into the cold earth. It feels like home...strange. Carefully placed into the dirt like a little baby...i am buried. Am i dead?
No! I am not dead! I am alive! Alive as any one of you! Alive as everyone of you!
I am strong! I am brave! I have a right to live! I shall break my prison and rise through my grave... back into the light where i belong. I shall not crumble and decay...i shall not be swallowed by worms...i shall not be forgotten.
This is my resolve. This is my destiny. I talk to myself...comfort myself...encourage myself as i rise through this cold earth...unconsciously drawn upwards...into the light. Oh Lord...give me strength to break this coffin. As i break through the surface...i feel the wind...i feel the sun...i feel alive. I spread my green leaves...and i Breathe.
I grow more each day. Higher towards the sky..towards the sun. I change...i grow leaves...i grow thorns. I resist the wind...the water...the dry heat...just to understand what i am. When the time arrives, i tear open my skin and spread my heart out to the world...my red...beautiful...soft...heart. With each day, i grow more...my heart grows...only to be cut away!
For you i shall give up my life. For you will abandon my home...my abode...my self.
Don't cry for me...for i shall bring a smile on your face.
Don't reject me...for i shall bring love into your world.
I shall say what a million words could never have...
So keep me close to your heart...because that's where i belong.
I sit on top of this heart...in this overcrowded world of lovers. Shining under the sun...tickled by the breeze. Being given to a loved one...i am invaluable. I am the only one...worth giving a life for. I'm unforgettable...irreplaceable.
I am a Rose.
Happy Valentines Day...to everyone. :-)
I sit on the top of this pile, in this overcrowded market for farmers. Baking under the sun...frozen by the bitter wind. Being sold for a couple of rupees, along with hundreds of others just like me...I'm not worth even a single rupee. I am expendable...replaceable.
Devoid of water, I am dry as sand...lifeless. Hard on the outside...i feel indestructible on the inside. How foolish of me.
Carried across the land...not knowing where i was born...not knowing from which womb was i stolen, i am thrust into the cold earth. It feels like home...strange. Carefully placed into the dirt like a little baby...i am buried. Am i dead?
No! I am not dead! I am alive! Alive as any one of you! Alive as everyone of you!
I am strong! I am brave! I have a right to live! I shall break my prison and rise through my grave... back into the light where i belong. I shall not crumble and decay...i shall not be swallowed by worms...i shall not be forgotten.
This is my resolve. This is my destiny. I talk to myself...comfort myself...encourage myself as i rise through this cold earth...unconsciously drawn upwards...into the light. Oh Lord...give me strength to break this coffin. As i break through the surface...i feel the wind...i feel the sun...i feel alive. I spread my green leaves...and i Breathe.
I grow more each day. Higher towards the sky..towards the sun. I change...i grow leaves...i grow thorns. I resist the wind...the water...the dry heat...just to understand what i am. When the time arrives, i tear open my skin and spread my heart out to the world...my red...beautiful...soft...heart. With each day, i grow more...my heart grows...only to be cut away!
For you i shall give up my life. For you will abandon my home...my abode...my self.
Don't cry for me...for i shall bring a smile on your face.
Don't reject me...for i shall bring love into your world.
I shall say what a million words could never have...
So keep me close to your heart...because that's where i belong.
I sit on top of this heart...in this overcrowded world of lovers. Shining under the sun...tickled by the breeze. Being given to a loved one...i am invaluable. I am the only one...worth giving a life for. I'm unforgettable...irreplaceable.
I am a Rose.
Happy Valentines Day...to everyone. :-)
As a child we were so strong.
Strong enough to forget the broken friendship of your childhood friend....
Strong enough to forget the death of your grandparents...
Strong enough to forget the cold limp body of your pet dog...
Change is so inevitable. It comes every moment...every second...in every breath we take...in every blink we make. Even words written in stone don't last. They get eroded away by the subtle wind...by the flowing water...by the charring fire. In view of this changing life, words like "forever"..."always"...seems so absurd. Nothing ever lasts...nothing ever remains the same. We ourselves change. With every day that passes by, we see more...we hear more...we learn more...we change.
So how do we find something permanent in this impermanent life? Do we make promises for eternal bonds? Do we hold onto the ones we love till our nails bleed their flesh? Do we cry and pray to God to make everyone we love immortal?
Today, I truly understand the meaning of the phrase, "Nothing lasts forever, yet life goes on".
Strong enough to forget the broken friendship of your childhood friend....
Strong enough to forget the death of your grandparents...
Strong enough to forget the cold limp body of your pet dog...
Change is so inevitable. It comes every moment...every second...in every breath we take...in every blink we make. Even words written in stone don't last. They get eroded away by the subtle wind...by the flowing water...by the charring fire. In view of this changing life, words like "forever"..."always"...seems so absurd. Nothing ever lasts...nothing ever remains the same. We ourselves change. With every day that passes by, we see more...we hear more...we learn more...we change.
So how do we find something permanent in this impermanent life? Do we make promises for eternal bonds? Do we hold onto the ones we love till our nails bleed their flesh? Do we cry and pray to God to make everyone we love immortal?
Today, I truly understand the meaning of the phrase, "Nothing lasts forever, yet life goes on".
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Gone with the flame
Sitting on the corner of his bed…the lighter feels so heavy in his hands. Clear liquid dancing in a transparent cage, not knowing it’s about to burn. He wonders…how would it feel to burn…to have your skin on fire, melting away...floating away from you…dispersing in the air with the black smoke. Would he still feel it if he was dead? On the pyre? He twirls the photograph in his hand…the image stares at him. He burns. Somewhere deep inside…he burns…without a flame…without any smoke.
He looks at the clock. It’s been ticking for the last three hours. Counting down every second…refusing to let one pass it by. He’s been sitting there, twirling the photograph in his hand…shifting between a colored image and the white back. How different they are. One burns him…the other soothes. Click! Click! Click!...and the lighter ignites in a yellow flame. Shinning light into the dark corners of the room. Its 3 am yet the sun seems to have invaded his world again. He twirls the photograph one last time. Looks at it in disgust…how can she smile like that? How can she be so happy? Can’t she see his face through the photograph? She wouldn’t be smiling if she could.
The tip touches the flame and it spreads across the photograph. It asks no questions. Takes no opinions. It just burns. Spreading in all directions…it just burns. “Betrayal! Betrayal!” his heart screams out. “Burn in Hell bitch! I hope you burn…just like this photograph.” A pain rushes up his fingers as the flame reaches the end of its victim. “Stupid shit…doesn’t even know when to stop”. The flame has no friends…no enemies. Its so pure…so neutral…so fearless. He wishes he could be like it.
The remains of the photograph lie on the floor. She’s not smiling anymore, but he is. He knows it’s over now. He can feel it. Like the world has been lifted off his back. His breath feels different now…cooler…softer. He knows there won’t be any more sleepless nights. No more staring at the ceiling…no more getting lost in random thoughts. No more association of places with memories…no more memories. He lies down and closes his eyes. No more flashing lights…no more tears. He knows it’s over.
He looks at the clock. It’s been ticking for the last three hours. Counting down every second…refusing to let one pass it by. He’s been sitting there, twirling the photograph in his hand…shifting between a colored image and the white back. How different they are. One burns him…the other soothes. Click! Click! Click!...and the lighter ignites in a yellow flame. Shinning light into the dark corners of the room. Its 3 am yet the sun seems to have invaded his world again. He twirls the photograph one last time. Looks at it in disgust…how can she smile like that? How can she be so happy? Can’t she see his face through the photograph? She wouldn’t be smiling if she could.
The tip touches the flame and it spreads across the photograph. It asks no questions. Takes no opinions. It just burns. Spreading in all directions…it just burns. “Betrayal! Betrayal!” his heart screams out. “Burn in Hell bitch! I hope you burn…just like this photograph.” A pain rushes up his fingers as the flame reaches the end of its victim. “Stupid shit…doesn’t even know when to stop”. The flame has no friends…no enemies. Its so pure…so neutral…so fearless. He wishes he could be like it.
The remains of the photograph lie on the floor. She’s not smiling anymore, but he is. He knows it’s over now. He can feel it. Like the world has been lifted off his back. His breath feels different now…cooler…softer. He knows there won’t be any more sleepless nights. No more staring at the ceiling…no more getting lost in random thoughts. No more association of places with memories…no more memories. He lies down and closes his eyes. No more flashing lights…no more tears. He knows it’s over.
Monday, February 9, 2009
A Part Of Me
This is for You...
Whom I shall never forget...
You know who You are...
There exists a cell in my brain in which you reside...a little memory...a past...in which you reside. That is how you have become a part of me, living with me...within me. A part of you that i believe and carry wherever i go. You are with me when i feel alone...your face dances behind my eyes...your words emerge from the depths of my mind...your voice speaks to me when i feel alone. It offers me guidance when my mind is turbulent. It comforts me when my heart is in pain. It gives me courage when the strength leaves my hands. It shows me reason when all i can see is chaos. Forgetting you is not possible. You remain etched in my skin...a scar...a mark...a painting....reminding me of the moment that you existed with me....reminding me that you shall forever remain with me...in life...in death. You may never realize...you may never understand.
Forgive me for the wrong which I may have done to you. Forgive me if i ever ignored you...if i wasn't there when you needed me. Forgive me if i ever disappointed you...let you down.
I may never get a chance to thank you. Even if i do...i doubt i shall ever have the words. Just remember, that you gifted me something that paper could never wrap.
This is for God...who has been a master...who has been a friend...guiding me through this life.
This is for my grandparents...who enveloped me with their love and care.
This is for my father...who showed me the meaning of trust and honesty.
This is for my mother...who showed me how to care.
This is for my sister...who has been saving my ass since i was a kid.
This is for my childhood friend Justin...who cried when I left. I never understood why you cried...now i do.
This is for my friend Saurabh...who saved me from becoming a "typical" person.
This is for my friend Santvana...who has always understood me, been the well of my thoughts.
This is for my friend Sahani...who made me believe in coincidences, showed my how two people from different times, different worlds can be so similar!
This if for my friend Prerna...who taught me how to "flush" my mind, when it becomes too much of a mess to solve.
This is for Neha...who was more than a friend, who inspired me to rediscover myself and be strong again. I'm sorry that i broke your heart...but its the only way i could have ever understood my own.
This is for my friend Nishan...who has been my partner in crime...in adventure...in laughter...in hard work.
This is for my friend Reema...who helped me find myself when i felt lost.
These words may never reach your eyes...but in my mind you shall forever reside....
Whom I shall never forget...
You know who You are...
There exists a cell in my brain in which you reside...a little memory...a past...in which you reside. That is how you have become a part of me, living with me...within me. A part of you that i believe and carry wherever i go. You are with me when i feel alone...your face dances behind my eyes...your words emerge from the depths of my mind...your voice speaks to me when i feel alone. It offers me guidance when my mind is turbulent. It comforts me when my heart is in pain. It gives me courage when the strength leaves my hands. It shows me reason when all i can see is chaos. Forgetting you is not possible. You remain etched in my skin...a scar...a mark...a painting....reminding me of the moment that you existed with me....reminding me that you shall forever remain with me...in life...in death. You may never realize...you may never understand.
Forgive me for the wrong which I may have done to you. Forgive me if i ever ignored you...if i wasn't there when you needed me. Forgive me if i ever disappointed you...let you down.
I may never get a chance to thank you. Even if i do...i doubt i shall ever have the words. Just remember, that you gifted me something that paper could never wrap.
This is for God...who has been a master...who has been a friend...guiding me through this life.
This is for my grandparents...who enveloped me with their love and care.
This is for my father...who showed me the meaning of trust and honesty.
This is for my mother...who showed me how to care.
This is for my sister...who has been saving my ass since i was a kid.
This is for my childhood friend Justin...who cried when I left. I never understood why you cried...now i do.
This is for my friend Saurabh...who saved me from becoming a "typical" person.
This is for my friend Santvana...who has always understood me, been the well of my thoughts.
This is for my friend Sahani...who made me believe in coincidences, showed my how two people from different times, different worlds can be so similar!
This if for my friend Prerna...who taught me how to "flush" my mind, when it becomes too much of a mess to solve.
This is for Neha...who was more than a friend, who inspired me to rediscover myself and be strong again. I'm sorry that i broke your heart...but its the only way i could have ever understood my own.
This is for my friend Nishan...who has been my partner in crime...in adventure...in laughter...in hard work.
This is for my friend Reema...who helped me find myself when i felt lost.
These words may never reach your eyes...but in my mind you shall forever reside....
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Soldier On
In the night, you duel with your fears
In the light, you fight with your thoughts
The chaos in your head...the carnage...the mess...
Dead memories... beheaded dreams...
Wounded egos and broken beliefs...
As your mind becomes a war ground...
Just soldier on...
In this wound was your cure...
The tear...the blood...the pain...
Your swords bathes crimson...
The blood on your brow is your own...
The gash on your chest was given to you...
Let the scar be the memory of your war...
Just soldier on...
Oh guardian of peace, make them believe
That your are awake while the whole world sleeps
In reminiscence of the life that you have lived
Let this decision be yours...yours and yours alone...
Forefit your accession...shed this armor...
With your dreams in your pocket...and hope in your hands...
Just soldier on...
Just soldier on...
In the light, you fight with your thoughts
The chaos in your head...the carnage...the mess...
Dead memories... beheaded dreams...
Wounded egos and broken beliefs...
As your mind becomes a war ground...
Just soldier on...
In this wound was your cure...
The tear...the blood...the pain...
Your swords bathes crimson...
The blood on your brow is your own...
The gash on your chest was given to you...
Let the scar be the memory of your war...
Just soldier on...
Oh guardian of peace, make them believe
That your are awake while the whole world sleeps
In reminiscence of the life that you have lived
Let this decision be yours...yours and yours alone...
Forefit your accession...shed this armor...
With your dreams in your pocket...and hope in your hands...
Just soldier on...
Just soldier on...
Erase...Replace....
With every moment that passes by, you become a memory that forever dies.
I did not give time this power to erase...the power to remove....the ability to create...
Within my head I had dreams, behind these eyes they would never sleep
But I let them dwindle in the darkness...crawl behind the curtains...
When one dream dies...the silence echoes in the night....
When one dream dies...your mind comes alive...
All I did was listen to the beats, as they danced from my heart to my mind...
With every beat that passes by...you become a dream that forever dies...
I did not give time this power to erase...the power to remove....the ability to create...
Within my head I had dreams, behind these eyes they would never sleep
But I let them dwindle in the darkness...crawl behind the curtains...
When one dream dies...the silence echoes in the night....
When one dream dies...your mind comes alive...
All I did was listen to the beats, as they danced from my heart to my mind...
With every beat that passes by...you become a dream that forever dies...
Your forever sun
Come...and light my flame...
Let me ignite, let me kindle, let me burn.
I will become the ember, the flicker, the flame
I will become the candle...melting to give you life
Drink me down like alcohol...
Pour me into the grass, under this magnifying glass
Char me black to the bones...don't ever give up...
Become the blaze...become the pyre...
Come...incinerate me... till your heart desires.
Maybe when your inferno dies out...
Then you might be able to see through the smoke
I was never the gun...I was never the spark....
I was never the gasoline...I was never the bark...
Maybe then you will realize that I can never burn...
Maybe then you will realize that I will forever burn...
I was beside you all along....
Your ever eminent sun...
Let me ignite, let me kindle, let me burn.
I will become the ember, the flicker, the flame
I will become the candle...melting to give you life
Drink me down like alcohol...
Pour me into the grass, under this magnifying glass
Char me black to the bones...don't ever give up...
Become the blaze...become the pyre...
Come...incinerate me... till your heart desires.
Maybe when your inferno dies out...
Then you might be able to see through the smoke
I was never the gun...I was never the spark....
I was never the gasoline...I was never the bark...
Maybe then you will realize that I can never burn...
Maybe then you will realize that I will forever burn...
I was beside you all along....
Your ever eminent sun...
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Undying Love
I asked for freedom...she made a noose.
I asked for faith...she walked up the steps.
I asked for sacrifice...she held the noose in her hands.
I asked for devotion...she put the noose around her neck.
I asked for peace...she closed her eyes.
I asked for courage...she smiled.
I asked for reverence...she whispered my name...
..."All that I am is me...all that I have is me.
...All that I give...I give to thee.
I shall not cry...thy shall not remorse.
Oh Live forever...My Loved One."...
...I asked for immortality...she plunged.
An "Undying Love" was all that I had asked her for...
...She gifted me an "Everlasting Debt"...
I asked for faith...she walked up the steps.
I asked for sacrifice...she held the noose in her hands.
I asked for devotion...she put the noose around her neck.
I asked for peace...she closed her eyes.
I asked for courage...she smiled.
I asked for reverence...she whispered my name...
..."All that I am is me...all that I have is me.
...All that I give...I give to thee.
I shall not cry...thy shall not remorse.
Oh Live forever...My Loved One."...
...I asked for immortality...she plunged.
An "Undying Love" was all that I had asked her for...
...She gifted me an "Everlasting Debt"...
Hidden treasures
See the world for what it is...imagine the world for what it's not.
Listen to the twinkling of the stars...they play the music of peace
Watch the howling of wolves...they gather with unity
Smell the drops in the ocean...they breed acceptance
Taste the rays of sunlight...they shower equality
Touch the strands of time...they embody patience
Oh being...the one who exists...the one who conspires...
Have faith in humanity...this imperfect humanity...
Oh being...the one who yearns...the one who learns...
Have faith in this world...this imperfect world...
Have faith in thy soul...
Have faith in thy self...
Listen to the twinkling of the stars...they play the music of peace
Watch the howling of wolves...they gather with unity
Smell the drops in the ocean...they breed acceptance
Taste the rays of sunlight...they shower equality
Touch the strands of time...they embody patience
Oh being...the one who exists...the one who conspires...
Have faith in humanity...this imperfect humanity...
Oh being...the one who yearns...the one who learns...
Have faith in this world...this imperfect world...
Have faith in thy soul...
Have faith in thy self...
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Lost in my thoughts
I just realized...that in most of what i have written...whenever i have mentioned the night sky...it has been moonless. Yes, i do I have a fascination for the moonless night...the dark and peaceful moonless night. I realized that there are a lot of things that fascinate me. I tend to drift a lot...become lost in my own little world with my colorful thoughts. It so often happens in the middle of a lecture...but a lot of other times as well. Sometimes i stare blankly at the wall...or the moving fan...and find myself in a trance. But most often then not...it happens when see something...something that catches my eye and rips me out of my body...drags me towards itself and leaves me frozen...enchanted. The feeling of going blank in your mind and senses...is oddly peaceful. Unfortunately...or fortunately...there are a lot of things that do this to me.
A flickering candle flame...the sound of thunder....flash of lightening...blue eyes...rain...oil drop on water...dew drop on a leaf...the swirl of water in a drain...the ripples on a pond...a butterfly landing on a twig...a squirrel gobbling groundnuts...rising smoke...lips... the full yellow moon...the white sun on a foggy winter afternoon...howling of the wind...kissing...heat rising from the road on a burning summer day...a drop of sweat on the tip of my nose...an orgasm...flickering of a bulb...smoothness of the scales of a snake...a falling star...wolves...black and white photographs...a dark moonless night...scanning tunneling electron micrographs of living cells zoomed millions of times...the wheel of a moving car...clouds moving across the moon...chirping of crickets...the fog...
There is so much to see...so much more to imagine...
A flickering candle flame...the sound of thunder....flash of lightening...blue eyes...rain...oil drop on water...dew drop on a leaf...the swirl of water in a drain...the ripples on a pond...a butterfly landing on a twig...a squirrel gobbling groundnuts...rising smoke...lips... the full yellow moon...the white sun on a foggy winter afternoon...howling of the wind...kissing...heat rising from the road on a burning summer day...a drop of sweat on the tip of my nose...an orgasm...flickering of a bulb...smoothness of the scales of a snake...a falling star...wolves...black and white photographs...a dark moonless night...scanning tunneling electron micrographs of living cells zoomed millions of times...the wheel of a moving car...clouds moving across the moon...chirping of crickets...the fog...
There is so much to see...so much more to imagine...
Roadkill
I had a near death experience today. As the smart ones would've realized by now...it was only a "near"death experience...just the trailer...not the movie. One step...that's it. I was "one step" away from it all...literally! One stupid little step that i didn't take...one thankful little step that i didn't take.
I almost got myself run over by a Haryana Roadways while catching an auto. I repeat..."I almost got MYSELF killed"! No...the bus was not speeding...the driver was not drunk...it was not reckless driving...it was reckless walking. Piece of advice...."look both ways before crossing the road.....always!!" I know most of you are screaming "DUH!" rite now...but trust me...it won't be so obvious when you do it. I know i am careless about the small things...but i always tend to be careful when walking on the road. I guess today was one of those days where I took something as simple as walking for granted. "I'm 21..i know how to cross the road!!!"...yeah..bullshit! I always used to wonder how someone got run over...always thinking that it must be at the fault of the driver...but today...as the bus whizzed past my face...missing me by a couple of inches... i realized its not always the case. The driver does honk...and he honks really loudly...but some people just have earphones stuffed deep into their ears and are listening to loud rock music to not pay attention to the ton of metal moving at 80kmph....people like me! :-( I'm thankful that one of those loud honks managed to pierce the sound of drums and base pounding in my ears and made me realize. I'm thankful that this one honk...made me turn my head around and stop myself from committing "unintentional suicide". As i sat in the auto...catching which almost got me killed...i did reminiscence about the last 21 years. They say your whole life flashes in front of your eyes just before you die...i say your happiest moments do!
I thought how it would've been. Would it have been painful?..Painless? Would time have slowed down...like it does in the movies...or would it be all over in a instant. I wondered if everything would become black...white...or red. I wondered if i would have gone to heaven or hell....or no where. I wondered how my body would have flown yards away...bounced of the road and landed in pool of blood...crushed bones and flesh ... my head split wide open...like a stray dog...the roadkill i have so often witnessed while traveling. I wondered if God would call me a "jackass" when he met me...or i met him...whichever way it works. Then i wondered if i would have survived...had a miraculous recovery...and then laughed about it. The difference in the two scenarios made my knees go weak. My stomach felt hollow. My head felt heavy...and i realized...i just played Russian roulette all by myself...and survived the first shot. I may not be so lucky the next time.
Today was a day of reminders. A reminder of how a little moment of carelessness could end it all. A reminder of the one who has prepared food for you...and is eagerly watching the road... waiting for you to come home. A reminder of who all would've cried if i had taken that one extra step. A reminder of all those who have been there with me since i was a child and they continue to do so...selflessly. A reminder of how i need to keep myself alive in order to keep those i love happy.
A reminder...that i am mortal. A reminder...that not everything is ticked on my "things to do before i die list". A reminder...that i am still a virgin! :-)
So people...take care of yourself. Don't throw it all away...this is one lesson you don't wanna learn the hard way. Be safe.
I almost got myself run over by a Haryana Roadways while catching an auto. I repeat..."I almost got MYSELF killed"! No...the bus was not speeding...the driver was not drunk...it was not reckless driving...it was reckless walking. Piece of advice...."look both ways before crossing the road.....always!!" I know most of you are screaming "DUH!" rite now...but trust me...it won't be so obvious when you do it. I know i am careless about the small things...but i always tend to be careful when walking on the road. I guess today was one of those days where I took something as simple as walking for granted. "I'm 21..i know how to cross the road!!!"...yeah..bullshit! I always used to wonder how someone got run over...always thinking that it must be at the fault of the driver...but today...as the bus whizzed past my face...missing me by a couple of inches... i realized its not always the case. The driver does honk...and he honks really loudly...but some people just have earphones stuffed deep into their ears and are listening to loud rock music to not pay attention to the ton of metal moving at 80kmph....people like me! :-( I'm thankful that one of those loud honks managed to pierce the sound of drums and base pounding in my ears and made me realize. I'm thankful that this one honk...made me turn my head around and stop myself from committing "unintentional suicide". As i sat in the auto...catching which almost got me killed...i did reminiscence about the last 21 years. They say your whole life flashes in front of your eyes just before you die...i say your happiest moments do!
I thought how it would've been. Would it have been painful?..Painless? Would time have slowed down...like it does in the movies...or would it be all over in a instant. I wondered if everything would become black...white...or red. I wondered if i would have gone to heaven or hell....or no where. I wondered how my body would have flown yards away...bounced of the road and landed in pool of blood...crushed bones and flesh ... my head split wide open...like a stray dog...the roadkill i have so often witnessed while traveling. I wondered if God would call me a "jackass" when he met me...or i met him...whichever way it works. Then i wondered if i would have survived...had a miraculous recovery...and then laughed about it. The difference in the two scenarios made my knees go weak. My stomach felt hollow. My head felt heavy...and i realized...i just played Russian roulette all by myself...and survived the first shot. I may not be so lucky the next time.
Today was a day of reminders. A reminder of how a little moment of carelessness could end it all. A reminder of the one who has prepared food for you...and is eagerly watching the road... waiting for you to come home. A reminder of who all would've cried if i had taken that one extra step. A reminder of all those who have been there with me since i was a child and they continue to do so...selflessly. A reminder of how i need to keep myself alive in order to keep those i love happy.
A reminder...that i am mortal. A reminder...that not everything is ticked on my "things to do before i die list". A reminder...that i am still a virgin! :-)
So people...take care of yourself. Don't throw it all away...this is one lesson you don't wanna learn the hard way. Be safe.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Eyes
Black is the color of the moonless sky
Darker are her beautiful eyes
Deeper and deeper she drags me down
I don’t know if I ever wanna get out
I may be lost, but I don’t think I wanna be found
Let me wander here for a while
Its peaceful than the world outside
Some hidden treasures, dancing fireflies
No sign of deceit and deception
Eyes so pure, devoid of lies
But hidden behind the darkness
Her tears twinkle bright
Seeming like little stars in the sky
I wonder what could be the reason she cries
The memories in which she dies
Just lead me deeper, where it hurts the most
I can heal your scars, make you smile
Take my shoulder if you feel weak
Hold my hand and I will walk by your side
Just to see a sparkle in those eyes
Those dark and beautiful eyes…
Darker are her beautiful eyes
Deeper and deeper she drags me down
I don’t know if I ever wanna get out
I may be lost, but I don’t think I wanna be found
Let me wander here for a while
Its peaceful than the world outside
Some hidden treasures, dancing fireflies
No sign of deceit and deception
Eyes so pure, devoid of lies
But hidden behind the darkness
Her tears twinkle bright
Seeming like little stars in the sky
I wonder what could be the reason she cries
The memories in which she dies
Just lead me deeper, where it hurts the most
I can heal your scars, make you smile
Take my shoulder if you feel weak
Hold my hand and I will walk by your side
Just to see a sparkle in those eyes
Those dark and beautiful eyes…
A million miles
There's a road, a sky and a lake...straw huts on the outskirts
Mountains and hills...with little children playing in the dirt
The world moves by and the world moves on
Souls arrive, only to depart and carry on
There's a blind man who sings and hums
A mother who waits for his soldier to return
A father earning life for his family
A baby suckling milk happily
There's a eunuch dancing in the aisles
Trading money for blessings, under fearful eyes
But here I sit, out into the darkness i gaze
Beyond the rail tracks...beyond the fields of maize
Your face...it dances behind these eyes...
More enigmatic than the moonless sky
A riddle...entangled thoughts...capturing my mind
The answers in your eyes...hidden behind
I have memories...a smile to my lips they bring
Bits and pieces, wound into an endless string
A laugh...a smile...a whisper...a kiss
The touch of a soft hand...the taste of your lips
I travel the land...from sunrise...to where the sun sets
From the land of maize...to the land where we met
I would brace the sun and the rain, just to be at your side
But for a moment...a second...a cold winter night
I have no diamonds, no rubies, no stones
I have no kingdom, no land, no home
I give you my warmth, my breath...all that I can
I give unto you all that I am
I would travel a million miles...spanning under a million skies
...to be at your side...
Mountains and hills...with little children playing in the dirt
The world moves by and the world moves on
Souls arrive, only to depart and carry on
There's a blind man who sings and hums
A mother who waits for his soldier to return
A father earning life for his family
A baby suckling milk happily
There's a eunuch dancing in the aisles
Trading money for blessings, under fearful eyes
But here I sit, out into the darkness i gaze
Beyond the rail tracks...beyond the fields of maize
Your face...it dances behind these eyes...
More enigmatic than the moonless sky
A riddle...entangled thoughts...capturing my mind
The answers in your eyes...hidden behind
I have memories...a smile to my lips they bring
Bits and pieces, wound into an endless string
A laugh...a smile...a whisper...a kiss
The touch of a soft hand...the taste of your lips
I travel the land...from sunrise...to where the sun sets
From the land of maize...to the land where we met
I would brace the sun and the rain, just to be at your side
But for a moment...a second...a cold winter night
I have no diamonds, no rubies, no stones
I have no kingdom, no land, no home
I give you my warmth, my breath...all that I can
I give unto you all that I am
I would travel a million miles...spanning under a million skies
...to be at your side...
Don't Forget
Don’t forget me please
I know I will never be able to forget you
No matter how far away death takes me
I will always be right next to you
Don’t forget the summer nights
Sitting on the roof watching fireflies
Sea breeze playing with our hair
Stars glistening in the moonless sky
Don’t forget the first time we made love
Candle light and satin sheets
The first time I felt perfect
With you in my arms, I felt complete
Don’t forget the fights
The times when we both were right
I lied just to see you cry
Just to see the flame ignite in your beautiful eyes
Don’t forget me please
I know I am not coming back
I love you more now that I’m losing you
But there’s nothing that I can do
I wish I could keep this heart beating a bit longer
Pause time to be with you forever
Don’t forget me please
I know I will never be able to forget you
No matter how far life takes you away
Death will bring me back to you
Back to you…
A winter flame
Into the amber glow of the fire I stare
Searching for shapes...maybe a face...
Breathe in the flame, let it engage
I sit for the night till the sky burns red
Oh fire, why do you burn?
Searching for shapes...maybe a face...
Breathe in the flame, let it engage
I sit for the night till the sky burns red
Oh fire, why do you burn?
In my peace
This emptiness surrounding me...enveloping the air like the fog outside my window. "Oh child...break free" my heart screams...as it sits chained to the tree."Oh child...release" my brain comforts...as it holds on to hope in the ever dying light. My skin soaks cold in the mist, as shapes form and dissolve in the gray...the cold...wet gray. Its not death, its not loneliness...its an odd form of peace. The one that knocks on your soul and wants to talk...the peace who stares into your eyes...waiting for you to blink first. It yanks out your desires and drags them through the streets...questioning your judgment at every turn. It questions...interrogates your mind...your morals...your sanity. Like the every swinging pendulum, my mind shifts...so ever restless...fading into fantasies...only to fade out again.
Give me fire...and i shall give you light.
Give me fire...and i shall give you light.
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